The past six months I notice that I start to develop a chronic planning problem. Because I try to do more every day, I also try to divide my day in the same way every day and keep myself to it, which fails a lot of times. In an attempt to use my day as effective as possible I instead block that way. Because of that I have done less in the end than I would have done when I had let the day run its course and just had done what I was feeling like doing on that moment.
This problem can be traced back to my high school where you had to work independent a lot and therefore had to plan everything if you wanted to finish everything. There it worked and because of that I got the hang of it, but I have noticed that it does not work when you try to convert it to your free time and your hobbies. I started with it when I had a period of time of bad sleeping again (I have those regularly). Because I did not have a job or went to school or something like that at that moment, I thought it was the lack of a regular rhythm was causing the sleeping problem, and therefore I started to go to bed on regular moments and also set the alarm in the morning. That way I slowly started to also pin down the times I ate and let the dog out.
By now this has gone fairly out of control and it has become so serious that I become mad, and because of that cranky, at myself when I shower too late in the morning. This because I always attempt to write directly after showering and I'm afraid that I can't manage to do that anymore when I leave the shower significantly later than usually. I have also noticed that switching to something else costs time and therefore I can't easily do a few things of, for instance, an hour long after each other but have to do them with moments of rests in between. Therefore it is better to work on something for a longer time and thus do a few things one day and do the other things the other day. This makes keeping things up to date difficult, but it prevents that there are days on which I do almost nothing.
A partial solution is simply think of less things to do, by which I set the bar down for myself. For instance, today I intended to at least shave my head (at the moment I do that twice a week), work a bit on the short I am working on at the moment and to write this post, and for the rest just see what I am in the mood for to do or what comes along, hoping that by doing that I am left with a better feeling about my day. The real solution though is to not pin myself down on times so much anymore, and I am going to try that for a small part again. For instance, yesterday evening I was mad at myself again because I went to bed late, but this morning I turned off the alarm (and because of that I woke up later than usually) but still did everything what I wanted to do. I will keep the alarm turned off for the time being, hoping that I will both sleep better as take my schedule less strict.